Novelty

You see me at the grocery store
asking me why?
You've clearly thought about it more than I have.
I don't know what to say
to make you leave quickly.

He looked my body over,
examining the changes I've made.
"It's just the icing on the cake" he said.
But the frosting was always his favorite part.
I want to hide myself.

They tell me I wouldn't do it
if I didn't enjoy the attention
But i just wanted to feel something
that wasn't disgusted,
when I looked at my skin

I stopped existing to please others,
and they'll never let it go.

Constellations

10 stars
I begin my new Journey, Strangers faces flashing.
Uncertain but hopeful, I move forward.
Where can this take me?
I welcome the mystery of the future.

23 stars
Connections ignite and burn out.
All cursed by demons of our past,
we present one another with nothing but ghosts.
Are the ones who burn bright through the darkness
trying to illuminate my path or lead me to danger?

102 stars
Guilt tripped.
I want it to end.
throw me 3 years into the future
and tell me its all worth it.
I want to connect, and to be connected with
But the percentages aren't right.
I feel so broken.

107 stars
Delete me, please
I can't take a hint.
Let's never meet face to face.
We're all just disappointments
waiting for our moment to lie.

Sprialed

(Aug 31, 2017)
Feel bad. Feel sad. Feel stupid. Feel empty. Feel out of control.
It's okay to have feelings that aren't positive of convenient.
Crying is healthy.

It's okay to feel sad.
It's no reason to spiral out of control
Little things can make you feel bad.
You don't need someone else to be whole.

Unrequited

Three feet away
I'd die to have you move closer 
but I'd suffer the same 
If I closed the space 
just for you to turn away