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My brain is absolutely vibrating
loud and unclear
why is it love that I crave
when stability is finally here

I’m hopeless if nothing else

And i Need some much work
before I could ever love someone
the way we both deserve

On the brink of addictions
and spiraling out
it’s a hand that I crave
to keep me on the ground

But don’t try to fix it
my brokenness is mine
it wraps around me at night
and everything is fine.

Please don’t kiss me
I don’t want your touch
honestly, the thing I need
Is just to know that I’m enough

When you look at me
I want to scream
what do you see in me
that I can’t seem to see

well, I know it’s a lie
because I won’t tell you the truth
I’ll hold it in tight
and let myself be used

So whats the point
really, I’m happy enough
why would I struggle
when I know that I can’t let myself fall in love